iloveyouwithmyheart

I hate my life and i hate me , 2day is a sad day , my friend morgan is now dead , i didnt know she wanted to die , but i still cant belive shes gone , i knew shes cut herself , but i still cant belive shes dead :( , i mean 15 years in the world and she couldnt take it i knw she has problems at home , and her dad alway hit her and her mom was a drunk , but i didnt know she was going tokill herself.... and i feel guity , you see this isnt the first friend thats killer herself , i have had 3 Monice , Kim , an Dan now i have four friends that killed themselves , god i aslso feel guilty cause i am not crying , but i cant cry anymore , i am so tired of crying , i am tired of hearing about my friends who i grew up with dieing , god last time when m friend died i got into drugs and drinking, thten i got better , but i have no clue what i am going to do know , i am soo sad . it sucks seeing my friends grave , it takes m eat least a day to go visit everyones i knews grave, i call it grave day , anyway i just dont feem joy anymore, and my whole school was sending emails to each other saying how crazy she was its like fuck you ,god , you see all her other friends are fake , they just eant popularity , so they never cared, they just hung with he cause she was popular , but know she is known as a "pysco" even though she isnt , it is fuckiing stupied , god their pathtic , also her so called friends , arnt eeven going to her funeral , they are such bitches
god , you dont even go to your friends funeral nice guys , nice , any way thats all i have , the last time i saw her was at a party , and she looked happy , but i guess she wasnt